topshop

i love this one : topshop
but the cutting is just...ish.




driving out buying stuffs.


dad's annual dinner on ytd.



babe took it for me, lovelove.




SISTER AND I.

HAHA

Random post, random day.

Fang lee and jojo, =)



haha wong kok.

Wenzi, me, fang lee.


i tag my baby here. =)



okay, carmen! my love.

Katherine, love love!

cockroach : eat me pls. ~~
lizard: ok.

Ish today aint a productive day.
What makes me said so?
I woke up around230pm and till now i never even touch my asg, fb all the day and yup i have NOT bath yet.
Haha what so wrong? During holiday and if i never go out from my hse i could dont bath for even FEW days.
Haha im just not so into bathing.
You will get what i mean if u ever bath in my room's washroom before.

Anyway these are not the points!
The point is...... I DONT HAVE A FUCKIN' POINT HERE.

Ish is that happens as i've get bored of blogging like what when a man gets bored of a lady?
* i hope my baby wouldnt do this to me.

Okay i've no longer emo these days!! as u know, he is always my light, my source.
When he is good to me, then i'm good! Get me? No?

Haha ok seriously loves make impossible possible la.
Love is like Wathafuck huge and MASSIVE!
* i only knew of this word when i was 18years old. ishhhh.

well i had some hard times in taylors! when everyone speaks fluent and deep eng while i dont!
Peeps make funny jokes which i dont really understand sometime.

You know i am just feeling...inferior.

Im inferior all the time! inferior of my face, my bodyshape, my academic results and etc etc etc.
Like oh so pathetic but well im satisfy of my life now.

Love is something makes you happy makes u smile, makes u upset makes u cry!
Love makes u sacrifice, makes u willing to give and take!
Love...okayokay get enough of love.

Anyway someone is crying all the time..not all the time lar, but all the night!
She is just living beside me, if u know who am i mentioning.
I dun fucking know why is she crying and i dun fucking get it.
Why am i using bad words?
Just to let her know how important is she ;)

ok skip topic!
I MAY be gettin a macbook!
cuz, well, mac is just something attractive la.
Its fast, its colour is nice, and well i maybe get used to mac as i were using fanglee's mac to do asg these days. You know, my lappy is dead!

woah! i thought i no longer write long long post anymore but yup, once again! hahaha

Anyway good day to you all? have your happy meal!

=))

somemore photos of me. ;)




xxx




Chocolates from ahbi. loves.

p/s: im happy cuz i just stole a purple towel from mum.

A long long post without any photos.

I think what he said is true..he said we are no longer possible.
He told me that he still loves me but we are just not suitable for each other. (like what happened before)
I miss him very very much during the few days not contacting him.
I tried my best not to cuz i thought it would make him appreciate me more.
In fact, it comes worse and he said he is giving up on me.

Anyway i think i shall not write anything regarding me and him anymore.
Cuz its like "oh again..." that kinda feel, you know.
We have been on and off for few times and i guess whoever who reads my blog gets annoyed.
I dont want to make myself like a problematic girl which has alot of things to be emo with.

The blog is like a diary i can write whatever thing in it - and this is what i used to think.
But when time goes by i realised that its just something impossible.
A blog is not a place which i could release my emotions, write sad things in it and stuffs.
Its like a place to put on a fire, a war, fightings and etc.

Weird peoples come and attack my blog from times to times.
They said im a bitch or something in fact i never know them at all.
At first i get pissed and sad but later on all these just couldnt affect my mood at all cuz i dont know who are these peeps in fact.
If they leave their link there and i realised they are actually my friends then i could actually get very upset.
But then..well, i think i got numb.

What affects my mood most is what happens between me and bf.
Sometimes i write post abt us but i didnt post it cuz i guess they are like oh-so-boring and nobody hopes to read this kinda post.

Other than a war, blog is also some place for you to show of too.
In sense of showing of yr nice gorgeous picture, *photo i mean, and then how sweet are u and yr bf/gf, how sad u are *sometimes ppl post photos with their tears on.
also, photos in clubs * where we take photos the most for the clubbers.

I am still feeling sad but i have stopped crying!
I guess maybe i feel sien towards this relationship already too like what he did.
I will not blame him for anything cuz all these are just memories of us on the path of growing up to a more mature person!
I love him and i guess i will continue loving him for some time.

Bye baby, i love you.
and i hope i wouldn't have to type any post like this anymore...which is regarding to loveship..how bad it is, how sad it is, and etc.
Kinda boring right???

I'm sorry i'm just not a good blogger which can entertain everyone of you like some of the others do.
But i will not delete my blog - at least for now, cuz in this way at least i will still have something to do while everyone is sleeping and i am dropping my tears.


Goodnite everyone, i am not sleeping now but i will try to cheer myself up in the bed.
Think of everything, think where goes wrong between me and him, in what way should i change and improve myself into a better gf, how to recover and cheer myself up from this sad-passed-relationship.

Sorry for the broken englishhhh. My english level is just so-so.

Do take care, and i appreciate it if u really do read my blog. =)

there is a god

Cheerful day

Would like to share this with you all to make yr day more cheerful!
* ppl with heart disease are not recommended.

Im serious.









xxx

then...something scary!

CUTE?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha, dont worry, be happy! =))

Still living good?

A friend of mine told me this,

Human tend to love someone that hurt us and hurt someone that love us.

I have to agree with this.
Normally human being tend to not appreciate what they are having currently, or something which they didnt put much effort to get and it comes all by itself.
Human being tend to appreciate something when they realised that "something" is leaving and it may not be coming back forever.

I'm loving a guy which hurted/hurts me very much.
I couldnt afford to live without him cuz i miss him every single min every single second. - i know this is very like geli or something i dont think i should say it here but i did cuz this is what i really do, only for him.
I am trying very very hard not picking up his calls and not replying any of his msg, very very hard as im those very *soft-hearted person.
Easily get cheated, easy to tam. (if only u understand kantonese, haha)

Im trying this very very hard so that i wont be that suffer in the future.

I had quite an amount of admirers (not to be perasan or something), and yup, i treated some of them very very bad.
How bad???? Not going to appeal here lar, just can say it was REALLY REALLY bad.

But anyway yes! I realised i dont appreciate them cuz they come by themself.
Who knows actually some of these guys are really a good boyf?
I was being too proud of myself i guess, i just wouldnt like someone who come and approach me by themselves.


Human tend to love someone that hurt us and hurt someone that love us.


I'm so agree with this.



Living good still?? yup.

Thanks for carmen and katherine.

Goodmorning.

I really feel like believing you my dear.

I really wanted to believe that u are not missing your ex gf, you are not sad because of her.

xxx

Im always stupid, u know it so well right?

You could just simply do some explanation to me, and i will always believe them.

We are together for a year plus yet now only i realised that you are so down when she is marrying to another guy.

And u never tell me a word abt it.

Baby, i really want to leave you, despite how hard is it.

Because the moment i saw these messages my heart have broken into pieces.

You will never know how much u have hurted me.

I really wanted to talk to you, but i shall not.

goodmorning. :)

my reply to your msg. :)

<3

Hair, Maisons.

A trip to the saloon.

Okay maybe some of you all know that i 've turn into a blonde while some of you dont.
So now im here showing photos of me......turned into a BLONDE!!!

Apparently, relatives and parents cant take it, some friends as well. *hmph*
And some of them thinks that my previous hair colour is nicer but what to do??
Im just in love with blonde. ;D

♥

Lots of the saloons don't recommend me to bleach my hair cuz my hair may drop, break, becomes fuzzy and alot stuffs summore after bleaching.


I wanted to do VERY VERY light colour like ash colour (that's my FAVOURITE hair colour) but it requires me to bleach my hair like 4 or 5 times to do that according to A Cut Above.
You know, my hair is already damaged by these previous dyeing and perming so i couldn't take it summore!


Also, i did survey on the price as well, some gave me 300++, some were 500, some even 900!!
Walau, one of these saloon at kuchai lama, asked me to do 7 or 8 times bleaching, asked for 900 bucks.
Want me die meh???
Purse keluar darah, i also muntah darah lorrrrrrrrr.
8 times bleaching? I better ready to make myself botak.
*altho i know i would look extremely cool if i were a bald!

Anyway, very very bravely (with the risk of getting fuck by mum, mumblings from relatives, shockness of friends, disagreements, discrimination *some thinks that asian with golden hair is a bad person, lots more lar!!!!!!), i've done it, turned myself a blonde!!!!!!!


Yup so this is the outcome of 2 times bleachin', :D


final outcome.
errr nope, actually my hair is still curl now but i blow it straight cuz i still prefer straight, can? :)

In the process...

i was soooooo nervous!!

blow curl =))

looking very very paleeeeeeee in blonde, still love it!



if you could notice my eyebrow turned into brown colour too!

Heading to maisons for ah bi birthday!! =)

on the way, inside the car, and we were late!

me and the birthday boy, Ah bi!!!

Jovy and the birthday boy. :)

jaycee, ah bi, jovy.


justin and I. :))

justin and jov.
weng gan and I.
me and ah tat.
Jov,ah tat, justin.
alfred and i.
ah tat, me, jov, weng gan and justin ;)
tat, patrick, me, justin, weng gan. ;p

Patrick and I.
Jovy.

About.

Just to inform everyone of these ladies and gentleman out there, if u want to come and criticise me may u please kindly leave your link so that i can spam you back.
If not i will just treat these words as rubbish and simply delete all these messages.
So leave your link may you?
Thank you for your cooperation.

Anyway, arent u tired talking to yourself chicago and lyne??
Lifeless.

And mathew, tell me who u actually are if u really hate me. =))

Goodnite. ♥