A long long post without any photos.

I think what he said is true..he said we are no longer possible.
He told me that he still loves me but we are just not suitable for each other. (like what happened before)
I miss him very very much during the few days not contacting him.
I tried my best not to cuz i thought it would make him appreciate me more.
In fact, it comes worse and he said he is giving up on me.

Anyway i think i shall not write anything regarding me and him anymore.
Cuz its like "oh again..." that kinda feel, you know.
We have been on and off for few times and i guess whoever who reads my blog gets annoyed.
I dont want to make myself like a problematic girl which has alot of things to be emo with.

The blog is like a diary i can write whatever thing in it - and this is what i used to think.
But when time goes by i realised that its just something impossible.
A blog is not a place which i could release my emotions, write sad things in it and stuffs.
Its like a place to put on a fire, a war, fightings and etc.

Weird peoples come and attack my blog from times to times.
They said im a bitch or something in fact i never know them at all.
At first i get pissed and sad but later on all these just couldnt affect my mood at all cuz i dont know who are these peeps in fact.
If they leave their link there and i realised they are actually my friends then i could actually get very upset.
But then..well, i think i got numb.

What affects my mood most is what happens between me and bf.
Sometimes i write post abt us but i didnt post it cuz i guess they are like oh-so-boring and nobody hopes to read this kinda post.

Other than a war, blog is also some place for you to show of too.
In sense of showing of yr nice gorgeous picture, *photo i mean, and then how sweet are u and yr bf/gf, how sad u are *sometimes ppl post photos with their tears on.
also, photos in clubs * where we take photos the most for the clubbers.

I am still feeling sad but i have stopped crying!
I guess maybe i feel sien towards this relationship already too like what he did.
I will not blame him for anything cuz all these are just memories of us on the path of growing up to a more mature person!
I love him and i guess i will continue loving him for some time.

Bye baby, i love you.
and i hope i wouldn't have to type any post like this anymore...which is regarding to loveship..how bad it is, how sad it is, and etc.
Kinda boring right???

I'm sorry i'm just not a good blogger which can entertain everyone of you like some of the others do.
But i will not delete my blog - at least for now, cuz in this way at least i will still have something to do while everyone is sleeping and i am dropping my tears.


Goodnite everyone, i am not sleeping now but i will try to cheer myself up in the bed.
Think of everything, think where goes wrong between me and him, in what way should i change and improve myself into a better gf, how to recover and cheer myself up from this sad-passed-relationship.

Sorry for the broken englishhhh. My english level is just so-so.

Do take care, and i appreciate it if u really do read my blog. =)